if you're reading this, and you cut me from your friends list, you know who you are.  For the record, i didn't like you that much to begin with, but, I think you took my comment too seriously.  Sorry?  I mean, i think it's true that people, that everyone, is cruel to someone else and thoroughly enjoys it at least once in their lives.  No one's perfect.  I mean, people are pretty ugly.  Also, you're little posse needs to learn to speak when spoken to, I don't like people getting involved in comments meant for one person, but hey, since you de-friended me, it's not a problem anymore!  Aaay!

You're a pretentious prick, there I said it.  I liked you for a while, not anymore.  : /  sorry, but i'm not going to be apologetic for how I feel when there's nothing to be sorry about.  

Lately grandma has been hounding me about losing weight, yup.  Shes calling me every day asking if I did my excercise, if I ate my 1500 calories and like, it's just, depressing.  Honestly, I had lost 11 lbs and she's still hounding me.  Yeah I need to lose more but for the love of god, can I do it for one day without her constant nagging?  She bought me clothes 3 sizes too small to 'inspire' me.  What...man I don't even know.  It's 2am and I'm shithoused.  Can't feel sorry for myself though.  Is depression and feeling sorry for one's self synonomous?  I hope not.  

 Ok so yeah, here's a list of spoilers and my reaction under the cut.

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 our results:
You are An Expendable Character (Redshirt)

An Expendable Character (Redshirt) 100% Deanna Troi 75% Beverly Crusher 60% Will Riker 55% Jean-Luc Picard 55% Leonard McCoy (Bones) 50% Data 44% Worf 40% James T. Kirk (Captain) 40% Spock 29% Chekov 20% Geordi LaForge 10% Mr. Sulu 10% Uhura 0% Mr. Scott 0% Since your accomplishments are seldom noticed, and you are rarely thought of, you are expendable. That doesn't mean your job isn't important but if you were in Star Trek you would be killed off in the first episode you appeared in. Click here to take the "Which startrek character are you?" quiz...

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The first TEN people to comment in this post get to request a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing from me. In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level. If you absolutely can't write, I don't see why you wouldn't be able to offer drawings or icons or something instead. Last bit ain't mandatory.

Yyeeeeaaahhh so, yeah.

Saw Star Trek today.  I really liked it, actually.  There was a good amount of humor in it, not ridiculous humor, but well placed and such.  I think the guy that played McCoy overacted a little but I still loved him. DISREGARD THAT I SUCK COCKS  I liked Spock as well...shit, I liked everybody!

A bit heavy on the camera flares but it didn't take away from the movie.  I LOVE ME SOME SPACE BATTLES OMG

Had a nightmare last night.  Was in a train station or some kind of large building, there was a large hallway with four doors about 100 yards apart from each other, two on each side of the hall.  I was running through it, and there was lava everywhere, slowly coming out of the cracks in the wall and pouring down from the ceiling on the sides.  I have this huge fear of lava, it seriously scares the living shit out of me, I can't watch volcano movies, they petrify me.  I was trying to get out of the building, but there weren't any doors to the outside, all the doors lead to bathroom stalls.  I got caught in one stall and lava was seeping in, quite quickly and I was standing on the toilet while it surrounded me below on the floor.  It began to pour through from the ceiling around me and that's about when I woke up

Four fucking F-15 flew right over my head.

Four Starscreams.


It was fucking awesome, and incredibly loud.

I also burst in to tears watching a F-16 do vertical rises in to the air because it reminded me of how much I love to fly and I haven't been able to for the past 10 months.  Doesn't help that 'Follow me'  from broadway Camelot was playing on the CD player.

Fuck the fireworks, I was born in this city for the airshow.

3:00 - opening ceremony
3:05 - parachute jumpers
3:17 - C-130 Hercules Kyang Tribute
3:22 - Lima Lima T-34 aerobatics
3:42 - L-39 Albatross
3:52 - "Pitts"
4:04 - F-15C
4:08 - **clearing air space**
4:12 - F-16CJ Viper
4:32 - **clearing air space**
4:35 - FA-18C Hornet
4:55 - C-130 Hercules (FUCK YEAH)
4:59 - B-52 Long Range Bomber
5:03 - B-1B Lancer
5:15 - A-10 Warthog (YEEAAHHH BBOOYY)
5:19 - F-4 Phantom
5:29 - F-22 Raptor (FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF)
5:49 - P-51, F-4, F-16, F-22
6:01 - Media Helicopters
6:16 - Red Bull Aerobatic Team
6:28 - F-260
6:40 - F-16C
6:44 - L-39
6:52 - Geico Racing Team
7:07 - AH-64 Apaches (   :D   )
7:23 - CH-47 Chinook
7:33 - CH-48 Sea Knight
7:37 - KC-10 Refueler
7:41 - T-1 Air Force Jet Trainer
7:45 - T-6 Air Force Jet Trainer II
7:48 - T-38 Air Force Talon Trainers
7:51 - Panavia Tornado Fighter
8:00 - OSPREY MOTHERFUCKERS OSPREY

Unferth has always been my favorite character in the book Grendel, he's so interesting.  I totally be diggin' the U-man.

THIS GUY

THIS GUY RIGHT HUR

THIS GUY RIGHT HUR
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www.youtube.com/user/LenonHonorFilms

is the biggest pile of WTF I have ever heard and seen.  His Micheal Jackson video made me seriously go 'wtf'.

Totally guys.  He's not just the Primer Prime, he's the Spoonier Prime.

( Energoney Goodness! )

You Scored as ....................You were created by Boudica!Boudica is known as an immortal queen, a fierce warrior, and a master of strategy plus a bringer of justice… Also, she is the deity that rules over fairness in courts and in royal assemblies, yet more… She is the feminine face of skill and determination: she is a fierce unbeatable warrior. She created you – and all in your Soul Cluster – to bring justice back to the earthly planes. Your power symbols – to mediate on, and use for high magick – are the: Dagger, All Eye Symbols, Square (Earth)

You Scored as ShnitzelYou are Shnitzel! My favorite out of them all. You can draw really good, your single, and slightly grumpy most of the time. You have tons of fans in the real-world (like meh! xD) however, not alot of people know your private life.

You Scored as Fire AngelYou are the fire angel.No one wants to get on your bad side.You can be good,but only to your friends.you are a great fighter and won't take failure for an option.Be proud of who you are.^-^ ^-^

Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random facts, things, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

((I'm not tagging anyone))

1. I frequently talk to storms, especially bad ones, when I'm walking somewhere, especially if I'm a far ways from a safe place and I'm stuck walking home from work or the park and everyone else is inside because I'm so scared.  It calms me down and somehow feeling humble to nature, especially the friggin tornadoes, makes me feel a bit better.

2. Ironically, one of my favorite songs is 'Oklahoma' from 'Oklahoma!', which is a state I wouldn't be caught dead in during tornado season.

3. When I was little I wanted to be a storm chaser, despite my irrational fear, I still do, because I've never seen a full tornado, and I think seeing one would help my fears.....or increase them tenfold.  Despite my fear and reverence of them, I think they're incredibly interesting and beautiful.  Even though they kill people.  But then again so do rainbows.

4. Coming from a long line of immigrant Typesetters, I'm proud to say that I am an excellent typist and that I've taken the letters off my keyboard so no one else can use it unless they can type as good as I can.  This resulted from my frustrations with my friends, who'd I would invite over for a sleepover and they'd simply want to play runescape or wow or some other dumb game instead and they'd just go at it while I sat in a chair behind them and watched.  So HA!

5. When I get in to a severe depression spike, I don't even notice until someone says that I've been acting weird lately.

6. I have a hard time accepting religious people because I'm afraid they'll all be extremely intolerant and ignorant, and I've come to discriminate against most people with a faith because of my bad experiences.  I hate this part of myself but unfortunately except for a very few people, I'm always proven right.

7.My favorite musical is 'Camelot' because it's the only time I have ever been able to relate to a lead character.  Arthur accepting that Guenevere and Lancelot love each other and also keeping them safe because he loves both of them too much to see them hurt certainly is  not an exact parallel to my life, but the boy and girl I am quite affectionate for both love each other very much, but I'm so happy that they're happy.

8. My best friend's dad gave me the nickname 'Saint Colleen'.  I have yet to be martyred.

9.I kind of resent the girl that i have a crush on because she's a paragon of beauty and she's incredibly nice, but also very introverted when she KNOWS how good she is, and lets it slip now and then, which makes me want to punch her.  She's a great singer, a beautiful dancer, a much better artist than I I'm pretty sure (she refuses to show  me her artwork) and a talented actress, and while I just want to get close to her sometimes I just don't know what to do.

10. Despite being overweight somewhat, I'm really flexible.  I pull the car seat all the way up as far as it can get then sit with my legs resting on the dashboard.  I'm also very short, which attributes no doubt to this.

11. I wear 3 catholic-y bracelets, not because I'm religious, but they're very pretty.

12. My vernacular irl changes constantly, but it's always some strange form of southern ebonics mixed with an ok vocabulary and dry sarcasm in every other word and a slight accent that apparently northerners notice, but I don't.

13. My 'Mauzzsi' account on DA was banned because I spammed Snapesnogger's page.  I don't regret it whatsoever.  Not because I felt that I was being cool, but I was having a riot constantly pressing 'ctrl+v' with the word DESU and cracking up after each comment post, it was just a lot of fun, and sure I didn't cap it, but fuck that, who cares, I had fun.  Although I do miss that account.

14. I really love to sing, but I want to sing LOUDLY because I feel lots of emotion guyz when I sing or hear music, but I have such a strange voice that I dare not to.

15. I enjoy being around animals more than humans most of the time.

16. I think that the healthiest thing I can do is leave this city and my mother, because honestly, although I know I can't escape my own problems, the least I can do is just have a change of scenery.

12:01 and I'm 18 years old.

MILTON, Mass. (March 29) -- A man on a rampage fatally stabbed his 17-year-old sister, decapitated his 5-year-old sister in front of a police officer and then headed toward his 9-year-old sister before officers shot him amid what their chief described as "a killing field."

I'm honestly at a loss of words right now, I'm just crying.  My ventrilo friends asked me what was wrong and I told them, they act all shocked and shit, then five seconds later, literally, they're freaking out in PVP about shit.

I don't know what to think.  I don't know what to feel.